It’s my cousin’s birthday today. She’s turning 19. We would usually have had a big party at her house with lots of food and music and games. Today we drove by at 4pm and wished her a happy birthday from our car window. It was a beautiful day today too. We would’ve been out in her backyard until two in the morning with my Aunt barbecuing, my Uncle keeping the fire going. I probably would’ve invited Ryan down. I’m looking forward to bringing him to a family barbecue. This summer we’ll probably be having one every weekend to make up for this.
Or maybe not. Going to the store today to pick up a card for Steph I didn’t even get out of the car and everyone was wearing masks. I wouldn’t’ve gotten close to anyone, but the fear of being in a public place was enough to keep me put. What happens when this is all over, will we ever be comfortable to hug each other again? Hold the door for a stranger? Maybe we’ll have parties again. We might go to movies like we used to, but things won’t feel the same. There’s no problem with being a bit more cautious. If we want to keep gloves on hand why don’t we? I don’t know if we’ll be able to socialize the way we all used to, not if this goes on for much longer.
I miss Ryan a lot, we’ve been skyping quite a bit, almost every other day. He’s still working at the supermarket, he’s been busier than ever. He stocks so thankfully he’s in the back, not working with customers. I haven’t been in a store in about three weeks. I can’t wait to see Ryan again. I can’t wait to see my friends from school either. We’ve been skyping once a week. We’ve not had much to talk about other than what we wish we were doing and what we have to do instead. We’ve all taken up hobbies. I picked up my guitar again and Julie’s taking extra cello lessons. Grace has been drawing a bunch more and just ordered strings for her Ukulele. If all those hobbies fail to keep us entertained, I’ve been trying to lean a TikTok dance for the past week.